These last few months have been one hell of a roller-coaster. I still suffer from depression, OCD and self harm-which is why I haven’t written in a while. For the beginning of 2016, I have made a sincere resolution to check into the blogging world as often as I can.
Still, this time last year I didn’t even think I’d be here. And that has to be something; the fact that I’m here, that I’m breathing. That I’m alive.
I look at the stars outside my window, and they form the outline of a vast and endless universe. It makes me think about how insignificant I am, and how infinitely small each of us are in the grand scheme of things. This does not scare me. Not at all; when life fucks me over, the unimportantance of a single human life reassures me.
But that alone is not what has kept me alive: hope is the saving grace that glues us together during our darkest hours, our bleakest days. Life is a process of constant change-each new sunrise brings with it a window of opportunity, and each sunset takes with it the hours that we’ll never get back.
The universe doesn’t stop.
Not ever.
There is no reason to be afraid.ย Sometimes the pain must be annulled. To be exhaled. To be let go.
Hope-I’ve found-is the one force strong enough to pull me through.
I can’t see it and I can’t be certain of it;
But I canย feel it.
Welcome back! Congratulations for keeping on going ๐
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Thank you! x
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I am very glad you are back. When I noticed you hadn’t posted anything recently, I was worried about what happened to you. Your work is amazing and connects with so many people.
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Thank you so much ๐ I have been struggling recently, but I’m alive and well ๐ It’s so nice to know that you care.
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I nominated you for the Liebster Award. Check out my blog for more info.. https://cmugrad817.wordpress.com/2016/01/25/the-liebster-award/
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Your words about looking up at the stars and feeling small/insignificant, takes me back to when I was standing atop the west rim of the Grand Canyon and feeling incredibly small and as it everything was truly irrelevant in that moment.
You’re not insignificant though, or small. You are a person, you have a voice, you should be heard always. Stay hopeful. Stay strong.
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Thank you Danielle ๐ I hope you’re doing okay at the moment, despite everything that’s going on. Feeling insignificant isn’t always a bad thing-being aware of how endless the universe is can make you feel motivated to experience more of it ๐
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Glad your back, great work.
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Thank you! ๐ x
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GAWWD I’m SO GLAD YOU’RE BACK. I’ve missed you so, SO much. I know you’ve been going through a hell of a lot lately, but I’m here for you, okay!? And YES it is an achievement that you’re here. I’m so proud of you.
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Bless you, thanks Em. I’ve missed you too and I can’t wait to see what you post next! ๐ xx
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Somehow I can relate to you. I read you “About” section and feel there are some similarities between you and me. I would surely like to read more from you. We all have dark days, and it was very true for you to say ” hope is the saving grace that glues us together during our darkest hours, our bleakest days”. Really nice and inspiring words.
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Thank you ๐ It’s also really nice to be part of a more understanding community, if that makes sense? I think a lot of us on here are feeling lost and in need of a voice-it’s a really great outlet ๐
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Absolutely I agree with you. I hope we all can be helpful to each other in those moments of feeling low and lost.
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Welcome back, lovely! I can’t wait to see how amazing your year is! xxx
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Thank you!xxx
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